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After work on Friday I caught the subway up to 14th street and went to my favorite fetishy clothing store. I went in looking for a miniskirt for next week, but ended up with a gorgeous black pvc dress with a neckline down to *there*.
I was having some size issues, but the salesgirl (I have such a crush on her) shook some sense into me. She's at least a size bigger than me, and I'm at least an XL. She said, "Yes, you have a tummy, you have thighs. But y'know what? No matter what you wear, you'll still have them. The right outfit won't magically hide them and make you thin. Everyone's still going to know you have the shape that you have. So you might as well wear something that makes you feel good, and just get over it."
We played dress-up for nearly an hour. She pulled nearly every daring, slinky dress in my size and made me try on all of them. I started getting used to the way I looked. I need to add, I was surprised at the size I fit into. Last time I was there, I needed at least a 2X. I don't notice myself losing weight, so it's always a thrill to see evidence of it (even though, believe me, I still have quite a ways to go).
So I narrowed it down to two dresses, and picked the one that gave me more cleavage. My strategy has always been, show enough of your breasts and people won't notice anything else, anyway. ;)
I usually wear corsets to these type of events. With all that's going on in my abdomen, I don't think it's wise, but I've been having trouble talking myself into other options; it seems so much safer to be around all these gorgeous people if I have my breasts pushed out and my waist cinched in and my shape enhanced in all the right directions... but you guys are my *friends*, right? You know me, and you won't think less of me for having the figure you all know I have.
...right?
The dress, the boots, the wig... It'll be a lot of fun. :)
After work on Friday I caught the subway up to 14th street and went to my favorite fetishy clothing store. I went in looking for a miniskirt for next week, but ended up with a gorgeous black pvc dress with a neckline down to *there*.
I was having some size issues, but the salesgirl (I have such a crush on her) shook some sense into me. She's at least a size bigger than me, and I'm at least an XL. She said, "Yes, you have a tummy, you have thighs. But y'know what? No matter what you wear, you'll still have them. The right outfit won't magically hide them and make you thin. Everyone's still going to know you have the shape that you have. So you might as well wear something that makes you feel good, and just get over it."
We played dress-up for nearly an hour. She pulled nearly every daring, slinky dress in my size and made me try on all of them. I started getting used to the way I looked. I need to add, I was surprised at the size I fit into. Last time I was there, I needed at least a 2X. I don't notice myself losing weight, so it's always a thrill to see evidence of it (even though, believe me, I still have quite a ways to go).
So I narrowed it down to two dresses, and picked the one that gave me more cleavage. My strategy has always been, show enough of your breasts and people won't notice anything else, anyway. ;)
I usually wear corsets to these type of events. With all that's going on in my abdomen, I don't think it's wise, but I've been having trouble talking myself into other options; it seems so much safer to be around all these gorgeous people if I have my breasts pushed out and my waist cinched in and my shape enhanced in all the right directions... but you guys are my *friends*, right? You know me, and you won't think less of me for having the figure you all know I have.
...right?
The dress, the boots, the wig... It'll be a lot of fun. :)
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Date: 2002-04-21 07:19 am (UTC)I'm having sari fastening issues!
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Date: 2002-04-21 08:54 am (UTC)You know I do, sweetheart! *hugs*