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Sunday, April 21st, 2002 08:58 am
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[let's try leaving this post public... for now]

After work on Friday I caught the subway up to 14th street and went to my favorite fetishy clothing store. I went in looking for a miniskirt for next week, but ended up with a gorgeous black pvc dress with a neckline down to *there*.



I was having some size issues, but the salesgirl (I have such a crush on her) shook some sense into me. She's at least a size bigger than me, and I'm at least an XL. She said, "Yes, you have a tummy, you have thighs. But y'know what? No matter what you wear, you'll still have them. The right outfit won't magically hide them and make you thin. Everyone's still going to know you have the shape that you have. So you might as well wear something that makes you feel good, and just get over it."

We played dress-up for nearly an hour. She pulled nearly every daring, slinky dress in my size and made me try on all of them. I started getting used to the way I looked. I need to add, I was surprised at the size I fit into. Last time I was there, I needed at least a 2X. I don't notice myself losing weight, so it's always a thrill to see evidence of it (even though, believe me, I still have quite a ways to go).

So I narrowed it down to two dresses, and picked the one that gave me more cleavage. My strategy has always been, show enough of your breasts and people won't notice anything else, anyway. ;)

I usually wear corsets to these type of events. With all that's going on in my abdomen, I don't think it's wise, but I've been having trouble talking myself into other options; it seems so much safer to be around all these gorgeous people if I have my breasts pushed out and my waist cinched in and my shape enhanced in all the right directions... but you guys are my *friends*, right? You know me, and you won't think less of me for having the figure you all know I have.

...right?

The dress, the boots, the wig... It'll be a lot of fun. :)

Date: 2002-04-21 07:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladycat.livejournal.com
*snugs* I love you just the way you are, especially if you love me like I am ;)

I'm having sari fastening issues!

Date: 2002-04-21 08:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lapis-lazuli.livejournal.com
> especially if you love me like I am ;)

You know I do, sweetheart! *hugs*

Date: 2002-04-21 08:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daonnan.livejournal.com
sounds like a whole lot of fun.
nothing better than a cool saleschick

Date: 2002-04-21 08:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] djstorm.livejournal.com
And you didnt take me with you? :P

I cut my hair cant have so much hair that I cant wear a wig ... lol
What fetishy shop you went to? Purple Passion?

Storm

Date: 2002-04-21 09:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lapis-lazuli.livejournal.com
Sorry... I was a little rushed on Friday. Next time?

I've given you access to the photos, though. I hope that makes up for it a little? :)

Conspiracies!

Date: 2002-04-21 07:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nosty.livejournal.com
I'm glad the saleswoman talked some sense into you.

There is an epidemic that has struck women in America-- no matter what size they are they have body issues. Girls who are 13 and size 0 complaining about the way their tummy pooches, women having a crisis upon turning 30, and shapely women doing yo-yo diets that are detrimental to their health. The beauty/fashion companies have it down tho... idealize female body forms that are impossible to attain, and then everybody has to use your product to become her. Photoshop and plastic surgery is wonderful for corporate America. It is no wonder women have higher rates of depression--oh, but we have a fix for that too... Eli Lily can sell you some Prozac!

Put your house in quarantine... toss away all those damn Cosmopolitan magazines. Look at your mother and aunts. Put up a Jayne Mansfield calendar. No more watching WASPy television like Sex in the City and Friends. All that "no fat" food makes people eat 2-3 times more than what they normally would've eaten creating great revenues for companies! Diet soda is preventing you from absorbing calcium (I'm sure medical science will have some drug/surgery for osteoporosis when we get old...) so buy a fruit bowl and a water bottle.

I rant about this stuff regularly in classes and I know people are thinking, "I bet she thinks Elvis is alive and the gov't is in contact with aliens."

Re: Conspiracies!

Date: 2002-04-22 03:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladycat.livejournal.com
I could marry you for posting that! :) :)

Date: 2002-04-22 06:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amarceluk.livejournal.com
When I was in college and a size 14 and a fetishy clothing fan (at least for the queer co-op dances), my theory was: When you're wearing a vinyl teddy, people do not say "Hey, look at the girl with the big thighs!" They say "Hey, look at the girl in the vinyl teddy!"

Although vinyl wasn't really my thing; I liked leather dresses. I had two great mini-dresses and one full-length suede gown that I actually wore to a formal dance. I think it's still in my closet somewhere, though I don't know if it fits.

Date: 2002-04-22 06:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lapis-lazuli.livejournal.com
True... but when everyone's wearing a vinyl teddy, what distinguishes you then?

Re:

Date: 2002-04-22 06:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amarceluk.livejournal.com
Hm...I was usually the only one. "Look at that girl in the vinyl teddy with the big thighs"?

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